On Uncertainty, Faith, and Carrying On
Reflection
One thing I've been dealing with lately is just the stress of not having everything figured out. Career stuff, money, trying to balance school, life — it just feels like a lot sometimes. Like you're putting in the work, but you're not totally sure where it's going to land. That's probably the hardest part for me — not the work itself, but the uncertainty.
What helps me is remembering that it's not actually random. Even when it feels messy, God is still involved. In PC 102 it talks about how what feels like wandering is actually God shaping your path, even if you can't see it yet. That hit me because most of the time I do feel like I'm just kind of figuring it out as I go. But maybe that's the point.
Another truth that helps is knowing I don't have to carry everything by myself. Christ doesn't just say "good luck" and send you off — He actually helps. Like in Matthew 11:28–30 when He says to come unto Him and take His yoke. That means He's in it with you. And honestly, that matters, because there are days where I'm running on fumes. Elder Bednar talked about how through Christ we can get strength beyond our own, and yeah — I've needed that.
Faith for me isn't some big, dramatic thing. It's more like, "Alright… I don't totally get this, but I'm going to keep going anyway." Courage is just not quitting when it would be really easy to. And hope is trusting that God actually knows what He's doing, even when I don't.
And that quote from Sister Michelle Craig kind of nails it — God isn't yelling directions at us. It's a still, small voice. Which means if my life is loud, chaotic, or I'm constantly distracted, I'm probably going to miss it. So part of getting through trials is just slowing down enough to actually hear Him.
"If God speaks in a still, small voice, you and I need to draw close to hear Him. Just imagine what would happen if we were as intent on staying connected with heaven as we are on staying connected to Wi-Fi! Pick a time and place, and listen for God's voice every day."
— Michelle Craig, "Spiritual Capacity," Ensign or Liahona, Nov. 2019, 19.
At the end of the day, I don't think Christ always removes the trial. But He changes how you go through it. He gives you just enough strength, just enough direction, and just enough peace to take the next step. And sometimes that's all you really need.